i had a dream
that i was tired
and bored with sun and sad
so i changed my name to yours
i had a dream
that you were born
the way you wanted and that you moved
into my room while i slept
when i woke up you were changing,
back facing me, jacket on top of sweater on top of button-down but it took no
time at all for you to vanish
and then reappear in my bed -
i lifted my hands,
trying to protect
my face, and you came in one of them,
crying “thank you, thank you”
i had a dream
that your face was reflected in my mirror -
i dread it, the possibility of
waking up to the same sun,
rolling over and kissing your hands,
smiling while you grip my lungs
and teeth
